Going the Distance

Ya know, we all hate the opposite gender at some points. Cant live with them, but our species cant live without them. Girls are extremely confusing, yes i will admit it. we all know we get bitchy and moody when mother nature takes her course, but we cant help that. and we just get annoyed easier. Now boys, on the other hand, are completely different. most of the time at least. Some boys are just like whatever i dont care yeah lets date, your hott, blahblahblah, but i mean buddah! thats ridiculous. you should give some thought into what your getting into, thats stupid. dont be the dumber gender. now flip the switch, there are some guys who are oh so passionate about a girl, or at least they do a damn good job of acting like it. So naturally us being romantic and caring, we fall into a deep liking with this guy. But then one small action could change things. saying something, not saying something, a promise, a phone call. anything. then you just cant believe that occurred over something that small. That group of guys, well actually all guys, need to make a freaking effort. go the distance. its not hard, it may take a while but it doesnt involve much from your part. even the smallest of things could change everything, like i mentioned earlier. i think countries should exchange genders, we should switch with england. hahah just kidding, but what girl doesnt swoon for an accent. but on the serious side, there needs to be a handful of guys that take a walk through a mental forest. get your self straight and figure out what your doing. dont be a light switch and go on and off. thats unnecessary. im going to sew my dress and listen to 60's music. i wish i could have been there for those days, everything was easy cuz they all were high and loving and real.

Autumn Eyes

the eyes are what we first see, theyre what we first see with, its what almost EVERYONE is attracted to. the eyes are our way into life. the world. everything, everyone, would be nothing without our way to light. and none are the same. almost like finger prints. but you have to catch all eyes in the sun rays to see the true uniqueness. the only types ive encountered are ocean eyes, which one could swim in for days, like they are an explosion of all shades of blue, and even a few hints of green, thats why they call it getting lost at sea, :) or perhaps eyes of a tree, like theyre mostly dark brown with hints of lighter brown swimming through them. now ive mostly recently found a guy with autumn eyes, which is the best way i could describe them when i think or look or talk about them. he has predominantly green eyes, at first glance in standard fluorescent lighting, but in the rays, theyre green with flecks of orange flicked through the green, them close to the pupil theyre almost light brown with different shades of yellow orange and red in them, its a truely amazing site to stare into. :) and some people dont really get it when i say "Autumn Eyes" but you have to see it to believe it. like santa clause, but only not really. :)

FREEDOM, to be

Reading between the lines? Nah, i read the whole book, i know the whole plot. all of us do it. we all skip around in books just so we kind of get the jist of it. but do people do that with more than books? hell yeah they do. people look between people, see what the want, think what they want. so they only get the jist of people. thats so dumb that people can do that, as civilized as we are, i mean really? weve come freaking over 2000 years, and we still are looking between people, still fighting, at war, still judging. when in the hell will this ever stop? never. people dont have the courage to do SO many things. no courage to say how they feel, live with love, do things they actually want to do, take a risk. all truely want is peace. what more could anyone want. its just too much. everything is. some people cover what they feel because they have no courage, theyre too scared to simply be. no ones awake. at least not fully.

No Hesitations to Legally Get High?

Well, its not a new phenomenon. its been around since my parents generations and people before them, they just didnt know anything about it. people use marijuana to enhance things, to get high, to be theyre social primitive selves, to be curious, to experience something new. Theres ways to alter reality without ingesting plants. I doser? its music, sound waves that apparently get you high. I did some research and read about it. even listened to the weed one and the quick happy one. just close your eyes, without distractions. i listened to the entire weed one and it didnt really do that much. i felt like it made my REM go in a pattern, if thats the effect of what theyre giving us, then way to trip over yourself. its not exciting. it just sounds like those relaxing animal noises or ambient waves that people listen to when they sleep. but kids think that this does things to them. the mind believes what you tell it to. if you want to believe these noises effect you, then they do. the body responds to what you think. if thats the case, allow me to sit outside and listen to the sounds of pungo. ill get high off nature. music itself, not ambient sounds, can alter your mood. just do that. its cheaper and less sketchy. and people wont think your faking it.

Oh the breeze of the ocean

soo my employee party was today, and it was kinda lame. but towards the end it was wayy funn. i hung out with my good friend nicolai, i hope i spelled that write. hes a really intelligent boy who goes to a different school. Im actually talking to him right now and hes talking about political malarkey and i honestly cant follow him, hes wayyy opinionated. and he runs a blog called the independent, and hes getting really excited about a debate he had with some person, and he should prolly be a president. hes an interesting kiddd, hes VERYY politically involved and he listens to scene music. he says things like that, political debates and what not i think, want to make him punch babies. oh noo i just told him i was writing about him :) until next timeee

JOURNEY ON

Into the Wild, Chris McCandless, I met his parents. Billie and Walt, theyre very nice. it was mind blowing seeing the pictures he took. I know i havent posted in a while but i was wayyy off the planet. it was awful. I rearranged my room, which made things soo much better. I put my bed on the floor, which made things seem more...how to i put this...real? idk, somethings of that nature, more natural? yeah that sounds good. hahah well anyways, schools out and its been 17 years on the 13th. i need to fix my about me, but i will in a minute. ohhhhhhh the joy of feeling new things. seeing new things. ahh, its invigerating, i prolly spelled that wrong but oh well. anyways, I need to go put food in my stomach or my mom will flip a cow. until next time. :)

Questioning the Elements

when somethings gone wrong, most people would ponder over it for a day or maybe even a few time lapses later, but me, oh no, i ponder in things for years, the occasional month or two, if im lucky. one must question the inevitable but me i interrogate the inevitable. Why is always the main question for most, but i usually say why me? although i have the realization that there are other beings on the earth that have worse events occuring to them. FLIP, but untangible occurances are my forte, if you will. i.e. trascending, revolution, musing, questioning, all things cannot be touched they can be accomplished or failed. let it be up to you, the dreamer.

The Design of Life

Im in english again and were doing another project, imi on the blast from the past laptops soo no piictures. i havent posted in a while but thats alrightt. my SAT is next saturday, and im soo scared. i just took a customer service test at the ATC center and i passed! no marketing exam for me :) haha but flip it for a second, me and katie are lovelyy, our four months is soon. Im excitedd. in school im directing a one act in intro, its called the keys and im soo in love with that play. my cast is amazing and were doing really well. my outside oneact is good. its a good time. *sigh* i have to finish my study guide for History, im close to being done but its due next class. Im getting a car or my license soon! im either getting a honda or an old stationn wagon, idk i iguess ill figure it out soon. anywayssss, last night i saw the reduced shakespeare company at the wells, and they diid all of his works in 90 minutes, it was HILARIOUS. i didnt think it was going to be thatt good, and there was only 3 guys! la la la, im soo bored. i wish there was a webcam but oh well, i cant do too much about it. no rehearsal today. iim glad though i need a break to just go homee, oh! and remember when i said im transcending? im readiing a whole bunch of those books and from now on, ill quote a line from Walden, which is my first book, and write what think and how i feel and how it relates to my life. okayy im gonna go! cuz i dont wnna get in trouble. :)

We Are Dreamers Of The Big Dream

Flying the blue jay way,
Is the way to go.
But what can i say?
Its more a high than a low.

Theres fire in the arcade tonight,
I almost cant bare to look,
Its just shining so bright.
Although thats not the hook.

The hook is a sequel,
To the things we all see.
It is the people.
It is we.

We dream and we ponder
About things that surround us.
Its mostly never somber.
Everything is just.

Just there,
Just next to them,
Just where?
Just a precious gem.

IN CLASS

hahaha im sitting in english class and im blogging yayy! spring break is soon :D im soo excited my friend sam is coming back up and i cant wait! i havent seen her in so long. in tech class today were going to build flats and play with snot! hahah not nose snot, muslin snot. my teacher is talking about inappropriate things on glogster. im not paying attention but thats okay. the guy sitting in front of me is such a smart ass, its entertaining. i dont have a picture today unfortunately because its not a cool laptop. its a lame 1990s back from the future laptop. soo im assistant directing for a one act play with my friend lance, and today is the first rehearsal! YAYYY! im sykeddd. well im really not sure what else to write about. im actually gonna try to find a relevant picture...

i found one! ttyl <3

The Final Kids Matinee

today was our last show for the schools, it went really well. kate, our cinderella, was tearing up a bit. it was too sweeet :) i saw beauty and the beast at tallwood and it was really good. i loved it, so anyone reading this should go see it :D i announce my cast for intro class tomorrow! thats probably going to be the highlight of my day, which, i suppose, is a little sad. but a lot of my days arent eventful until after school. like yesterda for instance. i found narnia! in sandbridge? it was sooo fun though. my green vans, are now brown. there was sooo much mud that i just stomped around in! the besttt. but our last show is sunday and im gonna miss it but then again we start one acts after that which is gonna be great because im assistant directing! well gotta crash to balance with my chaos! night :D

Transcending Within

well ive decided to transcend. we studied it in english, and i must say it peaked my interest alot. im reading emerson and tolstoy and throeau and im in loveee. but yess, over the summer its gonna happen. i asked my mom if i could live out in the wilderness and she shot me down. :( thats okay, but im transcending within soo its alls well that ends well right? lifes been such a debacle i need to balance it with something huge. which is my phase im going through hahaha, anywaysss. Theatre wise, we had our first matinee today and it went really well, no more rehearsals! this is the first time ive been home at a normal time in a month! maybe two? im not sure but thats alright. we have 11 other performances in the two weeks, its gonna go well. :) the pictures i posted are completely irrelevant to my post, i jus was in a nice mood, my cat doodle accidently took the top one, :)

Technical Pies?

sooo i had to make a pie for cinderella, because im in the technical theatre class and its done and its is beautiful! i just really wanted to post of picture of it, im soo proudd :D

Straight from upstage

ughhh, 7 and 1\2 hours of walking around in heels, fixing everyones hair, and putting lavs together. this is my hell for the next 13 days. i just got home (930 at night) and now im working on my pie and my prompt book, i have like no time sooo ill make a quick video. :)

Childrens Hospital of the Kings Daughters

Well, this is my first blog and im at CHKD right now waiting for my medicine. I had to miss the entire school day, but what teenager really minds that? The highlight of my day has yet to come, rehearsal. Were performing Cinderella and we open next tuesday! I may only be in the background but it takes up so much of my time. Today until 630, tomorrow until 900, Thursday until 930, Friday until 1000 and Monday until 1030. Woopie. But we get amazing food those days so i dont mind staying late. They might as well put showers and cots under the stage because the majority of us live there. I havent done my yoga for 2 weeks. Im going stir crazy and i need to change my room. Im trying to maintain balance but its difficult with theatre. thats the price you pay for something you love.