Going the Distance

Ya know, we all hate the opposite gender at some points. Cant live with them, but our species cant live without them. Girls are extremely confusing, yes i will admit it. we all know we get bitchy and moody when mother nature takes her course, but we cant help that. and we just get annoyed easier. Now boys, on the other hand, are completely different. most of the time at least. Some boys are just like whatever i dont care yeah lets date, your hott, blahblahblah, but i mean buddah! thats ridiculous. you should give some thought into what your getting into, thats stupid. dont be the dumber gender. now flip the switch, there are some guys who are oh so passionate about a girl, or at least they do a damn good job of acting like it. So naturally us being romantic and caring, we fall into a deep liking with this guy. But then one small action could change things. saying something, not saying something, a promise, a phone call. anything. then you just cant believe that occurred over something that small. That group of guys, well actually all guys, need to make a freaking effort. go the distance. its not hard, it may take a while but it doesnt involve much from your part. even the smallest of things could change everything, like i mentioned earlier. i think countries should exchange genders, we should switch with england. hahah just kidding, but what girl doesnt swoon for an accent. but on the serious side, there needs to be a handful of guys that take a walk through a mental forest. get your self straight and figure out what your doing. dont be a light switch and go on and off. thats unnecessary. im going to sew my dress and listen to 60's music. i wish i could have been there for those days, everything was easy cuz they all were high and loving and real.

Autumn Eyes

the eyes are what we first see, theyre what we first see with, its what almost EVERYONE is attracted to. the eyes are our way into life. the world. everything, everyone, would be nothing without our way to light. and none are the same. almost like finger prints. but you have to catch all eyes in the sun rays to see the true uniqueness. the only types ive encountered are ocean eyes, which one could swim in for days, like they are an explosion of all shades of blue, and even a few hints of green, thats why they call it getting lost at sea, :) or perhaps eyes of a tree, like theyre mostly dark brown with hints of lighter brown swimming through them. now ive mostly recently found a guy with autumn eyes, which is the best way i could describe them when i think or look or talk about them. he has predominantly green eyes, at first glance in standard fluorescent lighting, but in the rays, theyre green with flecks of orange flicked through the green, them close to the pupil theyre almost light brown with different shades of yellow orange and red in them, its a truely amazing site to stare into. :) and some people dont really get it when i say "Autumn Eyes" but you have to see it to believe it. like santa clause, but only not really. :)

FREEDOM, to be

Reading between the lines? Nah, i read the whole book, i know the whole plot. all of us do it. we all skip around in books just so we kind of get the jist of it. but do people do that with more than books? hell yeah they do. people look between people, see what the want, think what they want. so they only get the jist of people. thats so dumb that people can do that, as civilized as we are, i mean really? weve come freaking over 2000 years, and we still are looking between people, still fighting, at war, still judging. when in the hell will this ever stop? never. people dont have the courage to do SO many things. no courage to say how they feel, live with love, do things they actually want to do, take a risk. all truely want is peace. what more could anyone want. its just too much. everything is. some people cover what they feel because they have no courage, theyre too scared to simply be. no ones awake. at least not fully.

No Hesitations to Legally Get High?

Well, its not a new phenomenon. its been around since my parents generations and people before them, they just didnt know anything about it. people use marijuana to enhance things, to get high, to be theyre social primitive selves, to be curious, to experience something new. Theres ways to alter reality without ingesting plants. I doser? its music, sound waves that apparently get you high. I did some research and read about it. even listened to the weed one and the quick happy one. just close your eyes, without distractions. i listened to the entire weed one and it didnt really do that much. i felt like it made my REM go in a pattern, if thats the effect of what theyre giving us, then way to trip over yourself. its not exciting. it just sounds like those relaxing animal noises or ambient waves that people listen to when they sleep. but kids think that this does things to them. the mind believes what you tell it to. if you want to believe these noises effect you, then they do. the body responds to what you think. if thats the case, allow me to sit outside and listen to the sounds of pungo. ill get high off nature. music itself, not ambient sounds, can alter your mood. just do that. its cheaper and less sketchy. and people wont think your faking it.

Oh the breeze of the ocean

soo my employee party was today, and it was kinda lame. but towards the end it was wayy funn. i hung out with my good friend nicolai, i hope i spelled that write. hes a really intelligent boy who goes to a different school. Im actually talking to him right now and hes talking about political malarkey and i honestly cant follow him, hes wayyy opinionated. and he runs a blog called the independent, and hes getting really excited about a debate he had with some person, and he should prolly be a president. hes an interesting kiddd, hes VERYY politically involved and he listens to scene music. he says things like that, political debates and what not i think, want to make him punch babies. oh noo i just told him i was writing about him :) until next timeee

JOURNEY ON

Into the Wild, Chris McCandless, I met his parents. Billie and Walt, theyre very nice. it was mind blowing seeing the pictures he took. I know i havent posted in a while but i was wayyy off the planet. it was awful. I rearranged my room, which made things soo much better. I put my bed on the floor, which made things seem more...how to i put this...real? idk, somethings of that nature, more natural? yeah that sounds good. hahah well anyways, schools out and its been 17 years on the 13th. i need to fix my about me, but i will in a minute. ohhhhhhh the joy of feeling new things. seeing new things. ahh, its invigerating, i prolly spelled that wrong but oh well. anyways, I need to go put food in my stomach or my mom will flip a cow. until next time. :)

Questioning the Elements

when somethings gone wrong, most people would ponder over it for a day or maybe even a few time lapses later, but me, oh no, i ponder in things for years, the occasional month or two, if im lucky. one must question the inevitable but me i interrogate the inevitable. Why is always the main question for most, but i usually say why me? although i have the realization that there are other beings on the earth that have worse events occuring to them. FLIP, but untangible occurances are my forte, if you will. i.e. trascending, revolution, musing, questioning, all things cannot be touched they can be accomplished or failed. let it be up to you, the dreamer.